Strength to go through the fire is the song that is the very heart of this album. It was born from events that put me in a place I could either trust God to meet my needs or not. When I wrote this song it was my prayer, I was crying out for God to give me hope, to do what He asked me too. That was to stay in a marrage that was void of love. It was our third aniversery and when I told my husband what day it was he cussed me out and went off to work as usual. I reminded God of His promise not to put on me more than I could take, I cried out for hope. I sat down and wrote the song and as an act of faith cleaned the house prepared the best meal I could, sent the children off to a baby sitter and waited for my husband to show up. You need to know it had been months that a kind word was spoken or anything but a look of hatred had been given my way. That evening my husband came home with three roses and the evening was wonderful. The next morning it back to same anger. I knew that the Gift was from God and He had answered my prayers.
I would never tell someone to stay in an abusive relationship. When God asked me to stay He gave me permission to go, He is good like that. He is gentleman. He promised me He would give the strength that I needed. I had every biblical right to go, but took a leap into my Lords arms. I will tell you these songs are born from walking through the fire. I will tell you I would do it again, but would never wish it on my worst enemy. I had much to learn and many bondages that I knew held me back from being the women that the Lord wanted me to be and I continue on in that process. Tired of no Rainbows was writen prior to my marrage, I asked God to put me on the potters wheel, when I prayed that, I knew it would probably hurt, I was not wrong. I knew when I asked for the Lord to change me into a vessel he could use, I was broken and hated myself. I put the blame of the world on my shoulders and I hated the very site of me. I used alchol as an escape to punish the dirty little girl. I am grateful the Lord has set me free of that. It wasn't God's problem forgiving me it was mine.
I wrote "He Holds my Now and Forever" sometime in my early 20's, Funny how you can have all the pieces to a puzzle but not see the picture. I believed that God would meet other peoples needs but had to learn that He would show up for me. I know what it is to have no friends to be placed in the mountains with only the comfort of my two boys. I am also blessed that God did that, so I would stop and listen. I used to believe that He was up on a hill waiting for me to mess up so He could smack me down. I was wrong. I now see that the Laws were established because He loves us and knew the incredible pain that each of the Ten comandments, when broken cause. If Eve knew the pain, not only to herself but to all future generation would she have eaten the fruit, let alone touched the tree. I don't think so. In the mountains my whole veiw of Jesus changed. Trust in You and You Lord Left the Glory are both times of recognizing that I needed to do my part.
One day in the mountains, I sat a chair in front of me and invited the Lord to Joined me and I said: "I know who my mother told me who you are and what my grandmother said, I heard what all the churches said you are, but Jesus who are you?" I can say I heard Him say in my heart, "It's about time you asked." From that day on it stopped being my religion to my relationship with my Lord Jesus. It's growing and real and the more I learn of Him the easier it is to share Him with others. Because I really do want to know what makes Him smile. Hope the music brings hope and joy song that truely He is faithful and you too can Dance in the High Places.
About the Artist - Speaking from the Heart
Strength to go through the fire is the song that is the very heart of this album. It was born from events that put me in a place I could either trust God to meet my needs or not. When I wrote this song it was my prayer, I was crying out for God to give me hope, to do what He asked me too. That was to stay in a marrage that was void of love. It was our third aniversery and when I told my husband what day it was he cussed me out and went off to work as usual. I reminded God of His promise not to put on me more than I could take, I cried out for hope. I sat down and wrote the song and as an act of faith cleaned the house prepared the best meal I could, sent the children off to a baby sitter and waited for my husband to show up. You need to know it had been months that a kind word was spoken or anything but a look of hatred had been given my way. That evening my husband came home with three roses and the evening was wonderful. The next morning it back to same anger. I knew that the Gift was from God and He had answered my prayers.
I would never tell someone to stay in an abusive relationship. When God asked me to stay He gave me permission to go, He is good like that. He is gentleman. He promised me He would give the strength that I needed. I had every biblical right to go, but took a leap into my Lords arms. I will tell you these songs are born from walking through the fire. I will tell you I would do it again, but would never wish it on my worst enemy. I had much to learn and many bondages that I knew held me back from being the women that the Lord wanted me to be and I continue on in that process. Tired of no Rainbows was writen prior to my marrage, I asked God to put me on the potters wheel, when I prayed that, I knew it would probably hurt, I was not wrong. I knew when I asked for the Lord to change me into a vessel he could use, I was broken and hated myself. I put the blame of the world on my shoulders and I hated the very site of me. I used alchol as an escape to punish the dirty little girl. I am grateful the Lord has set me free of that. It wasn't God's problem forgiving me it was mine.
I wrote "He Holds my Now and Forever" sometime in my early 20's, Funny how you can have all the pieces to a puzzle but not see the picture. I believed that God would meet other peoples needs but had to learn that He would show up for me. I know what it is to have no friends to be placed in the mountains with only the comfort of my two boys. I am also blessed that God did that, so I would stop and listen. I used to believe that He was up on a hill waiting for me to mess up so He could smack me down. I was wrong. I now see that the Laws were established because He loves us and knew the incredible pain that each of the Ten comandments, when broken cause. If Eve knew the pain, not only to herself but to all future generation would she have eaten the fruit, let alone touched the tree. I don't think so. In the mountains my whole veiw of Jesus changed. Trust in You and You Lord Left the Glory are both times of recognizing that I needed to do my part.
One day in the mountains, I sat a chair in front of me and invited the Lord to Joined me and I said: "I know who my mother told me who you are and what my grandmother said, I heard what all the churches said you are, but Jesus who are you?" I can say I heard Him say in my heart, "It's about time you asked." From that day on it stopped being my religion to my relationship with my Lord Jesus. It's growing and real and the more I learn of Him the easier it is to share Him with others. Because I really do want to know what makes Him smile. Hope the music brings hope and joy song that truely He is faithful and you too can Dance in the High Places.
